As we grow older our journeys become more difficult to overcome, more heartbreaking to let go, and more passionate then before, BUT one thing that doesn't change is that with every situation, every journey, every heartbreak, every relationship, every experience.... we ALWAYS learn something. I don't believe in mistakes because at one point in time it was EXACTLY what the fuck you wanted to do. I hate when I hear people, men as well as women, complaining about how much an ex-boyfriend/girlfriend, ex-husband/wife, fuck it an ex-lover, is such a mistake and how much you wish you had never dealt with them.... blah blah blah. NO!! I don't buy it. They weren't a mistake when you were all bunned up with that joint so now that its over it's a mistake. Take that to someone that actually aint allergic to bullshit cuz it aint me.

ANYWAYS.....

My 23 year old journey has been full of love, pain, suffering, despair, happiness, karma, wonder, ecstasy, daring and marvelous imperfections. And it continues.... but lets not get it twisted my journey is not me FINDING myself. I know who I am, and what Im about, but most importantly I know what I want outta life. Naw this journey is about PASSION....

Now I have analyzed my past "real" relationship and all the mini "situationships" and have come to a conclusion: I have decided that to be IN LOVE with someone will NEVER again happen. Before jumping to conclusions about my decision hear me out. Love by definition is a "warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion," and after looking up the definition love just does not sound very appealing to me anymore. From my experience, being in love only leaves us heartbroken and full of resentment and who in their right mind wants to end up with unhappy, with a broken heart, and their eyes full of tears?? I know I dont... been there and done that.

So now that love is out and passion is in lets talk about passion a little bit. When you think about passion some people like to associate being passionate about someone is having lust for that person, but I dont think thats anywhere near true. When you are passionate about something i.e music, painting, dancing, singing, it's a feeling that cannot be explained. You strive for it, you work harder to achieve it, you do everything in your power to have it in your life because without it you feel hollow and incomplete. Passion is real, passion is honest, passion NEVER goes away.

Now one thing that I am still contemplating is whether I want to speak about my lost love. I may refer to certain situations in regards to that relationship but I think I am gonna stay away from that area of my life. And I bring up this past heartbreak because what I had with him was LOVE. And I think that everyone, every single one of us has had that one love... a love that has had us sooo wrapped up in it that it was unhealthy. A love that you knew was not meant to be but rather then listening with our minds, we listened with our hearts. And once we stopped listening to our minds our hearts were stolen, and shattered into a million pieces. Yeah the pieces are eventually picked up one by one and put back together BUT we are NEVER the same. We never love the same again, we never trust the same again, nothing is ever the same but we do walk out of the situation stronger, wiser, and more determined then ever before.

"If there is no passion in your life, then have you really lives?? Find your passion, whatever it may be. Become it and let it become you, and you will find that great things happen FOR you, To you, and BECAUSE of you." T. Alan Armstrong

Smooches xoxo