I swear this week has been absolutely Crazy. Within the last week we've lost a television pioneer, Ed McMahon, a 70s pinup girl, Farah Fawcett, the KING of Pop, Michael Jackson, and 9 people in the worst DC Metro accident to date.... after just thinking about that I need a moment......
Now I have lost people in my life, some that I knew, some that I loved, and some that have definitely left an impact in my life but recently I lost a friend. He was way more then a friend, he was my "son son" lol. On April 18th my homie Joshua aka LA was with a bunch of friends at a local bar. Now details of the story have changed and continue to change from the time of the accident BUT one thing that is certain is that there were 5 passengers in that vehicle, 4 guys and 1 girl and there was only 1 survivor, the driver. They were driving on a road that I am way to familiar with and I cant say exactly what happened because like I said the story changes but the car ran off the road, hit a tree, a mailbox, and 2 utility poles. Everyone that was in the backseat was thrown from the vehicle including LA. My son son died on the scene along with one of the other passengers. The other guy that was ejected from the car died later on that morning in the hospital due to his injuries and the girl I believe died days later, mind you the night she was out with them it was her birthday....
The reason that I bring this story up is because literally hours before he left that night I saw him. I gave him a hug, he smacked me around a little bit just the way that only LA could do, we blew one up in the air as he sat there and tried to convince me to go out with them to the bar. I didnt go out with him but I sit and wonder what if I did?? What if I could have convinced him to come out with me and my homegirl that night?? What if... what if... what if.... A question that continues to repeat itself in my mind. And then I start realizing that life is too short. Im sure he didnt think going out that night would be his last time out, or that hug I gave him would be the last time he would see me, or those that blunt he smoked would have been his last... We just DONT know.
Nothing is ever promised tomorrow today and thats real. I can only speak for myself but I know since LA's accident I have definitely changed alot of things within my own life. I take everyday for what it is and cherish every waking moment I have with my daughters. I have cut WAY back on my drinking and have even changed the way that I drive. I cherish even more the people that surround me with positive energy and pray for the ones that only try to bring me down. My outlook on life has changed and we ALL need to step up and understand that everything comes to an end. Realize that everything happens for a reason whether the outcome is positive or negative, learn from it, grow from it, become stronger and wiser and take every lesson learned as a stepping stone to happiness cuz when it all boils down to it thats all we want, is to be HAPPY.
"Hate is easy, but love takes COURAGE."
Smooches xoxo
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