I love you and yet I cannot forgive you
You turned me into a monster, so trapped in my own mind
Mentally torn down and beat to a pulp
I had nothing left, do you understand?
Your life was happy, new friends always
Mine was awful, my friends all moved on
You didn’t trust me, though I did nothing
I hated fighting, I did everything I could to please you
But it was never enough
You asked a girl to kiss you, you told that bitch you loved her
You visited me at work, then visited her at home
I never understood your lies, I never saw them coming
I never lied, cheated or even glanced at another man
Mentally torn down and beat to a pulp
I had nothing left, do you understand?
Your life was happy, new friends always
Mine was awful, my friends all moved on
You didn’t trust me, though I did nothing
I hated fighting, I did everything I could to please you
But it was never enough
You asked a girl to kiss you, you told that bitch you loved her
You visited me at work, then visited her at home
I never understood your lies, I never saw them coming
I never lied, cheated or even glanced at another man
Until I became what you made me be, spiteful
I wasn’t enough, you felt you needed more
Why did you hold on to me while you got to play around?
You dragged me along until I thought death was the only cure
You could have let me go
I tried many times to break the ties
But you always begged and pleaded
I thought that was love
I was wrong
I didn’t want to be in this world any more
Until the comforting words of my savior
Told me don’t give up
I was strong when I left you
His words rang through my heart and soul, every minute of every day
He numbed me so that I may recover from the surgery that was my broken heart
I did well, I was happy, I was strong
I held back the tears wanting no pity
I remembered how to be happy and light spirited
No longer uptight but care free and happy
I’m not upset to have learned I am human
Just grateful that he brought me peace
Now everything is different
I have no stable ground, other than that which he has placed under my feet
When I sat in your car it was a comforting
The familiarity I have longed for
But I know you have moved on and I am happy for you
It is painful to see the unhealthiness of our old lives
I sift through our memories, and hold on to love and happiness as I would a piece of gold
You will find true love one day
If that is what you wish for
But as for me I am satisfied with the love of God
And if he should bring a man for me
Then I will love and respect him with all of my heart, as I did you at one point in time…
Why did you hold on to me while you got to play around?
You dragged me along until I thought death was the only cure
You could have let me go
I tried many times to break the ties
But you always begged and pleaded
I thought that was love
I was wrong
I didn’t want to be in this world any more
Until the comforting words of my savior
Told me don’t give up
I was strong when I left you
His words rang through my heart and soul, every minute of every day
He numbed me so that I may recover from the surgery that was my broken heart
I did well, I was happy, I was strong
I held back the tears wanting no pity
I remembered how to be happy and light spirited
No longer uptight but care free and happy
I’m not upset to have learned I am human
Just grateful that he brought me peace
Now everything is different
I have no stable ground, other than that which he has placed under my feet
When I sat in your car it was a comforting
The familiarity I have longed for
But I know you have moved on and I am happy for you
It is painful to see the unhealthiness of our old lives
I sift through our memories, and hold on to love and happiness as I would a piece of gold
You will find true love one day
If that is what you wish for
But as for me I am satisfied with the love of God
And if he should bring a man for me
Then I will love and respect him with all of my heart, as I did you at one point in time…
Smooches xoxo
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