Falling in love after being heartbroken is definitely a challenge all in itself. Ones views on love, relationships, and trust change believe me I've been there and done that. I've definitely had my share of heartbreak, disappointments, lies, trials and tribulations BUT I can say that with every failed "situationship" I have learned a little more about myself and what I really want in man and what I really want out of love.
I've learned to read the lies, avoid the bullshit, and not deal with anyone that has no intentions on making me happy. Im in a place in my life where I don't want to play games anymore. I've done the dating thing, I've done the single thing and Im DONE. It's always the same shit, at least with me it is.... I meet someone, we'll have good conversation, we'll seem to have a lot in common so we start "dating." Shit will be good for a few months, you know outings every weekend, spending nights together, great sex, everything will be good at least in my eyes it is. Then it happens.... he'll stop calling/texting, communication becomes minimal, our time together disappears, and Im left feeling a fool for even believing the lies that had came out his mouth so I leave him alone. And like clock work these same niccas that dropped me like a bad habit ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS come running back. It'll start with simple text messages and phone calls.... You know the "Hey how have you been? What have you been up to? You know I miss you right?!" UGHHH.... the grass wasn't greener on the other side now was it mofo.
These niccas always think that they can run off and "disappear" until they are ready to come back in the picture. It don't even work like that and Im sick and tired of niccas thinking that just because they have a dick that that's how it's gonna go down. Naw.... not even a little bit. Yall can Stop Bullshitting Yourselves.... they may be able to pull that shit off with some of these other bitches out here but I DONT WANNA HEAR IT mainly because I KNOW they are out fucking around. These "men" will have a bitch around for a minute, think that she will always fuck with them, stop dealing with her to deal with other broads and then when they realize that what they had was good, they wanna come back. And for that reason right there is why it has been sooo hard for me to even get close enough to another man let alone fall in love again....
But for the past few months I have been focusing on myself and my kids and not even thinking about another "situationship." I call them "situationships" because its a situation that involves characteristics of a relationship.... if that makes any sense (it makes sense in my head). Like I said before Im tired of the same bullshit.... Tired of the same lies..... Tired of the same games..... Tired of men thinking that I don't know what the deal really is and looking at me like Im a fool.
To create happiness one has got to think outside of the box.... take chances.... go for the unexpected and try something NEW. You never know, love and happiness could be staring at you right in the face but because you're afraid of CHANGE, you don't take that chance and it slips away..... Im not gonna let it slip. Real Talk.
"Someone Doesn't Have To Be PERFECT To Be EXACTLY What You Need."
Smooches xoxo
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