Perdoname

There are things that just dont last. No matter how hard you want them to be "forever" it just IS NOT possible. 

This is for you. The one person I have yet to be able to apologize to for all the harm and pain that I've cause you. No matter what I did, no matter how much I betrayed you, no matter how much I disappointed you in my decisions, you have yet to turn your back on me. You try, believe me I know you want to, but it's not in your heart to do that to me. 

I love you. I love you more then any words could ever describe. I know I haven't been perfect. I've tried to be what you've wanted, I've tried to be what you always expected me to be but my life took another turn. I never expected it to get to this, please believe me when I tell you that I never wanted to hurt the way that I did. I'm not trying to give reason to my faults because I don't have a good argument but I am asking you for forgiveness. I'm asking for another chance. Im asking you to ounderstand that my decisions are MY decisions. Im asking you to allow Lindsay Desire Graciano to be just that, Lindsay Desire Graciano. 

I'm know I'm not perfect. I avoid conflict by keeping what I really feel inside. Im indecisive. I'm fearful. I'm hardheaded. I don't listen very well. I'm TOO emotional. I can keep going... but YOU, you have the biggest heart. You deserve to have EVERYTHING. You deserve the world and if I could give it to you, whatever it takes, believe me I would do it for you. I wouldn't be who I am if it wasn't for you. You have been the biggest influence in my life. With you it was love, hate, anger, disappointment, selfishness, heartache, disapproval, unworthiness.... EVERY emotion possible.... we've been thru it. 

Mira, writing is what I know. Writing is what you taught you so thats what Im doing. I love you. I love you more then life itself. You and the girls are the only ones that I would give my life to, because all three of you deserve it. You deserve happiness. You deserve love. You possibly deserve a much better life then I could have ever gave you and I just wish that I could have gave you all that and more.

I dont know if you will ever read this. I hope that maybe one day I'll be able to print it out and just hand it to you just so you know.... but for what it's worth I am sorry. I would apologize to you for the rest of my life if that meant that I could take it all back. I should have never been that way towards you. I should have never took you for granted. I love you. I love you soooo much (obviously cuz you have me writing this.)

Te Amo. Asi de simple.

Smooches xoxo